Finally getting around to reading the cards that the family gave me for Confirmation and started to weep when my mom included my dad in saying that they are both proud of me. I miss him. I guess I wanted to write this down because it’s a good reminder of this human feeling of missing someone and how hard it can sometimes be to let go and cry when your body wants to. it’s like crying is something that can be turned on or off, just like that. i guess what i’m trying to say is that when the mind takes over, it has the possibility to stop a human emotion from happening. but when a person is able to let go and become authentic to his or her emotions, then that can finally be a sign of humanity.